fourty-four caliber
.44 caliber love letter straight from my heart
Act One, Scene One
"Young and Aspiring"
about me

Cacoethes Scribendi
catalogued bitterness

Graphics
self-explanatory

Library
Man's Subliminal God
misanthropic philosophy

Life and Suicide of Mister Mary Holiday
"What a Wonderful Time for a
Mass-Murder Suicide"

Music
Index
the jamboree, home of the hits

Brand New
"fight off your demons"

BN extras
all the stuff that didn't
make the main page

The Blood Brothers
Burn, Piano Island, Burn!



contact
see me here. talk to me here.
hear me here. ... and here.
hate me here. comment... or die!


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Since April 12, 2021
to best enjoy this website, sit on something with back support, wear loose fitting clothing, avoid overhead lighting. to best understand the material, work part time, make less than $20,000 a year, grow your hair out, live under constant threat of eviction, wait until your bills arrive in pink envelopes before paying them, have highly personal and easily misunderstood goals, wake after nine but before noon, have roomates regardless of your age, be a success sexually but remember your failures, understand the world wasn't made for you, understand your parents are just people and be nice to them based on merit, have definite opinions but understand the world does not care, judge people on how they will fit into a D&D; campaign, love animals, do not treat retarded people like lepers, really don't treat lepers like lepers, be kind to people, do not be afraid of other people's opinions, understand art has a context and don't dismiss things outright, don't be married, do not have children, avoid hard drugs (they make you talk too loud and that's annoying), understand people have the right to be tasteless, approach doors with confidence and not fear, attach yourself to people who are funny, distance yourself from uptight squares, embrace the meteor, try new things.












































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If you're on mobile, you may have to zoom out on pages when they load so they can be viewed properly. This website is not at all designed for mobile use but I can't stop anyone from doing it.

Newest pages:
music index graphics

Recent updates: Music page is being frequently updated, as well as monthly media logs. Writing page has a new layout but not a lot of new content. New page May 9th 2026: graphics.

In all honesty, I'm growing a bit tired of this website! It's been the same for years and feels very redundant. Currently drafting new layouts and considering a possible rebrand from 44caliber
Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,
and the wisdom to know when to give up and end it all.