fourty-four caliber
.44 caliber love letter straight from my heart
Act One, Scene One
"Young and Aspiring"
about me

Cacoethes Scribendi
catalogued bitterness

Where you want to be
photos

Music
the jamboree, home of the hits

Library
Man's Subliminal God
misanthropic philosophy

Life and Suicide of Mister Mary Holiday
"What a Wonderful Time for a
Mass-Murder Suicide"

Fanpages
Brand New
"fight off your demons"

BN extras
all the stuff that didn't
make the main page



contact
see me here. talk to me here.
hear me here. ... and here.
follow me here. comment... or die!



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to best enjoy this website, sit on something with back support, wear loose fitting clothing, avoid overhead lighting. to best understand the material, work part time, make less than $20,000 a year, grow your hair out, live under constant threat of eviction, wait until your bills arrive in pink envelopes before paying them, have highly personal and easily misunderstood goals, wake after nine but before noon, have roomates regardless of your age, be a success sexually but remember your failures, understand the world wasn't made for you, understand your parents are just people and be nice to them based on merit, have definite opinions but understand the world does not care, judge people on how they will fit into a D&D; campaign, love animals, do not treat retarded people like lepers, really don't treat lepers like lepers, be kind to people, do not be afraid of other people's opinions, understand art has a context and don't dismiss things outright, don't be married, do not have children, avoid hard drugs (they make you talk too loud and that's annoying), understand people have the right to be tasteless, approach doors with confidence and not fear, attach yourself to people who are funny, distance yourself from uptight squares, embrace the meteor, try new things.













































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Do not view on mobile. I've slightly reformatted this page for the first time in years, hopefully it doesn't look too terrible.

Last updated February 15, 2026: The music page has finally returned with a new and hopefully improved layout. I'm not sure why but this is the most I've struggled on a page in a long time. Not that the layout is difficult or anything, but somehow everything was going all wrong, hence the very long wait.

Another new page to go along with the music page, album of the now: Burn, Piano Island, Burn by The Blood Brothers. I have more to add here as well but I'll need to edit the layout to fit more. "Congratulations, you're fucking's greatest hit!!!"

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Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,
and the wisdom to know when to give up and end it all.
I leave you with one last message: always choose love...

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