Well... there isn't much to know, is there?

Vivian, 19 years old, female, USA. Anorexic recluse manic depressive. 5'6" 90lbs, dark hair, blue eyes. Addicted to attention.

My two main interests at the moment are Brand New and the Charleston church shooting, both of which I have webpages for that desperately need to be fixed and updated. Other bands I'm currently into include Glassjaw, The Fall of Troy, Cursive, Fall Out Boy, Cute Is What We Aim For, The Academy Is..., The Hotelier, and Carissa's Wierd. Favorite pop singer is Lana Del Rey and favorite kpop group is le sserafim.

I'm also interested in... The Church of Euthanasia, alt.suicide.holiday, personal websites from the 2000s and late 90s - early 2000s internet in general, kpop girl groups (current faves are twice and le sserafim), Stephanie Lawson Stevens, beanie babies, pop punk and post hardcore (not too much into emo bands as of late), sanrio, Zero Day (2003), Anatomy of Hell (2004), Lilya 4-Ever (2002), and various other things mentioned throughout this website...

quiz results:

your beanie companion is: snip which beanie baby is your true companion?

frequently asked questions...
How long did it take you to code this/learn how to make a website? My first website was made in the summer of 2018, and it absolutely sucked! A new website that I made in 2019 was significantly better, but unfortuneately I don't think I have any archives of it. The website you are currently on was created on April 12, 2021 with the name yourfavoriteweapon.neocities.org and eventually rebranded in the summer of 2022 to 44caliber.net, a reference to .44 Caliber Love Letter by Alexisonfire. With the name change came a whole new website as I deleted all content that was previously on here. So it has basically taken me a little over two years to code everything you see on this website.

Where do you get the information/pictures that are used on your Brand New page? archives of brandnewrock.com on the wayback machine, old livejournal threads, reddit, tumblr, and occasionally flickr. I try to make sure that there are multiple mentions/sources about a specific event before I put it on the page in order to keep everything fairly accurate

[Anything relating to the letter I wrote to Dylann Roof] I may as well make an entirely seperate page dedicated to the questions I get about him.... To sum this one up as briefly as possible, I sent a letter to Dylann a few months ago, I have not recieved a reply, Dylann is known not to respond to letters, and the only way I will share the letter I wrote is if I get a response from him (so basically never). I think people often ask me for advice in writing to him simply because I know so much about him, but truthfully I have absolutely no idea what you could write to get his attention in a way where he would want to write back and honestly I wish I knew (if I knew what'd make him respond I'd probably gatekeep that information anyway, sorry not sorry). All I can say is that 1. anything you can think to say to him has probably been said in someone else's letter and 2. he was advised by his lawyers at one point not to respond to letters as his responses could possibly be used against him in court, however I can no longer locate the article that talked about this, so you don't have to believe me if you don't want to.

Why are you interested in Dylann specifically? What first caught my attention was a fake letter from him posted on tumblr in which he's really annoyed with all his fangirls. After that I looked him up on encyclopedia dramatica (no idea why I went there first and not an actually reliable source...) and tumblr and my interest in him quickly grew. July 21st 2023 marks the day I downloaded a picture of him for the first time, and a few days later I downloaded and read his psych evaluation, which really marks when I became interested in learning everything about him. Reading that psych evaluation is what solidified my interest in him when I felt a connection that I had never expected to feel with someone who did something so horrible with how similar our life experiences were. One good thing that came out of that is being able to see what went wrong in his life for things to end up the way that they did and then knowing how to avoid the same things in my own life. Over a year later though, I'm honestly not sure why I'm still so interested in him. It's odd because I'm still very fixated on him, but I've read everything there is too read, so I'm just in an odd position where I'm out of things to learn and talk about.