fourty-four caliber dot net
stolen from some great writer
(lyrics and other things i didn't write)
young and aspiring
(about me)
the story so far
(blog/diary)
"shrines"
cat marnell
brand new
music
(scuffed work in progress)

more coming soon hopefully T^T

"i'm insecure and i need attention!"
lua@angelic.com

welcome to fourty-four caliber dot net
(a struggling project due to perfectionism and the need to conform)
made using google chrome

and you've cried once more because recognition feels like forgiveness, which is a burning furnace that can't stand on its own. love is a feast but you've learned to abstain. there is a sickness that follows the shame of giving with love only to be met with slaughter.
click here to see the old index, you might like it more

find me here:
my neocities profile
penknifelovelife.tumblr.com
last.fm/user/calosta

Jan. 29: new index! also added something to the archive section of the
brand new page, instead of just linking to a different site. it's pretty cool
( at least to me ), check it out!

Jan. 22: finally updated music page again

Jan. 20: fixed spelling/grammar mistakes, new diary entry

Jan. 16: various small updates, new diary layout

Dec. 7: new layout for quote page, updated music page, + other
small updates to other pages ♡



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to best enjoy this website, sit on something with back support, wear loose fitting clothing, avoid overhead lighting. to best understand the material, work part time, make less than $20,000 a year, grow your hair out, live under constant threat of eviction, wait until your bills arrive in pink envelopes before paying them, have a pregnancy scare, have highly personal and easily misunderstood goals, wake after nine but before noon, have roomates regardless of your age, be a success sexually but remember your failures, understand the world wasn't made for you, understand your parents are just people and be nice to them based on merit, understand sexual partners know you better than your friends and treat them warmly, have definite opinions but understand the world does not care, judge people on how they will fit into a D&D campaign, love animals, do not treat retarded people like lepers, really don't treat lepers like lepers, be kind to people, listen to La Dispute, listen to Brand New, do not be afraid of other people's opinions, understand art has a context and don't dismiss things outright, don't be married, do not have children, avoid hard drugs (they make you talk too loud and that's annoying), understand people have the right to be tasteless, approach doors with confidence and not fear, attach yourself to people who are funny, distance yourself from uptight squares, embrace the media, try new things.