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March 12, 2023 / Title Fight - Like A Ritual

The key to making shitty days less shitty is listening to Title Fight alone in your car. Trust me!

"First time in a while that everything is fine. I'd lie to you; I've been lying to myself all the time."

March 5, 2023 / The Hotelier - Home Like Noplace Is There After nearly 10 years of listening to suicidal lyrics, I think this is the saddest album I've ever listened to (and it's amazing!) I believe the first time I heard this album was in the summer of 2015, and I sure am glad my ten-year-old self didn't understand a single word because I most definitely would have killed myself by now.

Favorite songs:
Your Deep Rest
Among the Wildflowers
Life in Drag

"You caved and you asked, "Is this coming of age?" As you climbed out the window, your face cold as stone. You lifted the towel, your wrist showed the bone. Held my breath in the ER, I swayed as I stood. I tried to stay steady, protect you the best that I could. And you pretended to sleep the entire ride home, but I heard you crying when you felt alone." - In Framing

My Chemical Romance

Brand New

Title Fight

Touche Amore

La Dispute Got this shirt when I saw them during the Wildlife 10th anniversary tour ♡ I've listened to La Dispute since ~2015 (aka when I was more of a child than I am now), so it really meant a lot to finally be able to go to one of their shows. I've only seen a couple of bands live, but La Dispute was BY FAR the best (...sorry Fall Out Boy)

Brand New

My Chemical Romance

Hot Mulligan

La Dispute

Modern Baseball This shirt was the only survivor of an event I dubbed "The Great Merch Purge of 2016", in which my parents realized that their child didn't quite fit in with other kids, and decided that the best solution would be to throw away all of my emo band merch... except for this shirt. The last time I wore in was in the summer of 2022. I haven't worn it since because I was really only a fan of Modern Baseball in 2015 and I feel like a phony wearing it now because I don't listen to them anymore

Fall Out Boy

My Chemical Romance

Bonus: rotten.com Not a band, I know. You may recognize this neat skeleton guy from my homepage... or rotten.com's homepage. I'm putting it here anyways because it's the coolest. The only person I've encountered who knows what it's from was the guy checking IDs at the La Dispute show
I'm not going to transcribe my spotify wrapped because it's kind of boring and everything can be seen on my last.fm, important thing is that I was in the top .001% listeners of The Academy Is...! My first thought was "How embarassing!", and my second thought was, "oh, that's actually kinda cool. they're a good band". Top artists & top track by them, quickly!

1. The Academy Is... You Might Have Noticed
2. Brand New Sic Transit Gloria... Glory Fades
3. La Dispute Nobody, Not Even the Rain
4. Say Anything Admit It!!
5. Armor For Sleep Car Underwater

Yes I know I'm a big fake and a garbage human being and a poser and all that because 3/5 of those songs are in the like top 3 of those bands' most popular songs. Hopefully next year I can prove myself as the ultimate elitist emo listener that I attempt to present myself as. (At least my top Brand New track on last.fm is Flying at Tree Level so anyone who goes to their top listeners automatically knows that I'm cooler than everyone...)
every song rec i've put on this site in the past year:
Judas Kiss The Academy Is...
Pour Yourself A Drink The Academy Is...
The More You Talk The Less I Hear Armor For Sleep
Nobody, Not Even the Rain La Dispute
like blood from a stone Old Gray
Sic Transit Gloria... Glory Fades Brand New
The Recluse Cursive
The Night Life The Starting Line
Dream to Make Believe Armor for Sleep
First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice La Dispute
Bianca Devins XO willow
After The Last Midtown Show The Academy Is...
SCENES FROM HIGHWAYS 1981-2009 La Dispute
Title Track Death Cab for Cutie
Art Official Touche Amore
Eau d' Bedroom Dancing Le Tigre
Dog Song Sweet Pill
Silencer mewithoutYou
Harder Harmonies La Dispute
Screaming Loathe
Honest Sleep Touche Amore
Same Logic/Teeth Brand New
Always and Never Silverstein

October Albums:
La Dispute Wildlife La Dispute Rooms of the House
Touché Amoré Parting The Sea Between Brightness And Me La Dispute Somewhere at the Bottom of the River Between Vega and Altair
Taking Back Sunday Tell All Your Friends Cute Is What We Aim For The Same Old Blood Rush With A New Touch
Taking Back Sunday Where You Want to Be Silverstein Discovering the Waterfront
Uffie Sex Dreams and Denim Jeans Cansei de Ser Sexy Cansei de Ser Sexy
The Pom-Poms The Pom-Poms Ladytron 604
Fall Out Boy From Under the Cork Tree Chicks On Speed Will Save Us All

November Albums:
Loathe I Let It In And It Took Everything Brand New The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me
Title Fight Shed La Dispute Somewhere at the Bottom of the River Between Vega and Altair
Sweet Pill Where the Heart Is Touché Amoré / La Dispute Searching For A Pulse / The Worth Of The World
Touché Amoré ...to the Beat of a Dead Horse Brand New Deja Entendu
La Dispute Panorama Touché Amoré Parting The Sea Between Brightness And Me

December Albums:
Silverstein Discovering the Waterfront Brand New Deja Entendu
IVE LOVE DIVE Brand New Daisy
An In-Depth Exploration of Everything I've Ever Liked (a.k.a why I am the way that I am, plus a cleverly disguised tribute to everyone who posted emo lyrics to tumblr in the year 2014, and a weak ode to songs that make my heart drop into my stomach because I associate them with my ten-year-old self)
unfinished work in progress
last updated: dec. 12
The length of that title is only further proof that I've spent an absurd amount of time analyzing everything Fall Out Boy's ever made. Thanks to Tumblr's archive system (seriously, I can see the last 8 years of my life on one webpage...), I have evidence that I listened to the following bands: Tiny Moving Parts, Brand New, Knuckle Puck, The World is a Beautiful Place & I Am No Longer Afraid to Die, Deafheaven
Of course there's also twenty one pilots, my chem, fall out boy... even yung lean, but that's what every 10 year old listens to these days (if my internet observations are correct). My individuality complex deserves better than that!

here's a recreation of what I think my topster would have looked like in 2016:

related pages:
cd / record / cassette collection
Brand New fanpage

topster as of january 2023, very loosely organized
(click for higher quality)