fourty-four caliber dot net
stolen from some great writer
(lyrics and other things i didn't write)
young and aspiring
(about me)
the story so far
(blog/diary)
"shrines"
cat marnell
brand new
music
(scuffed work in progress)

more coming soon hopefully T^T

"i'm insecure and i need attention!"
lua@angelic.com


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rhodonite for stress relief, promethazine for sleep, a rabbit toy for children, my deep condolences



"a struggling project due to perfectionism and the need to conform..."

(made using google chrome, view on desktop please)

Since April 12, 2021

to best enjoy this website, sit on something with back support, wear loose fitting clothing, avoid overhead lighting. to best understand the material, work part time, make less than $20,000 a year, grow your hair out, live under constant threat of eviction, wait until your bills arrive in pink envelopes before paying them, have a pregnancy scare, have highly personal and easily misunderstood goals, wake after nine but before noon, have roomates regardless of your age, be a success sexually but remember your failures, understand the world wasn't made for you, understand your parents are just people and be nice to them based on merit, understand sexual partners know you better than your friends and treat them warmly, have definite opinions but understand the world does not care, judge people on how they will fit into a D&D campaign, love animals, do not treat retarded people like lepers, really don't treat lepers like lepers, be kind to people, do not be afraid of other people's opinions, understand art has a context and don't dismiss things outright, don't be married, do not have children, avoid hard drugs (they make you talk too loud and that's annoying), understand people have the right to be tasteless, approach doors with confidence and not fear, attach yourself to people who are funny, distance yourself from uptight squares, embrace the media, try new things.









































Updates:
Jan. 29: another new index layout, not as plain as the other one! i'm still not too sure if i'm happy with it though. . . an emo 2000's myspace layout may come in the future also, 30k views!

Jan. 29: new index! also added something to the archive section of the brand new page, instead of just linking to a different site. it's pretty cool (at least i think it is), check it out!

Jan. 22: finally updated music page again
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